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Assalamualaikum and hello. Today, I wanna tell you a story. It's my love life. For you to know Imma fool,stupid. I rejected somebody who love me waiting for someone I love. And right now I just realized how much I love him. Many people told that he love me but why he gave up? Why the time I need him the most he gave up? I've lost in this cruel world. I've drown loving somebody who hurt me until I lose him. Dear Ashraf, I want you to text me ,call me and smile at me.I miss you not him anymore. Call me please.... I felt like I wanna cry last night because you... Didn't looked at me yesterday. Didn't text me or call me and you didn't replied my text. Are you mad at me or have someone else? I hope on 27th Dec I can meet you and say 'Hi'. I don't care if people say I'm desperate because I am . I'm desperately in love with you. Whether you're not the kind of boy with a handsome face but I guess love is blind. One thing i want to say you'd said you love me but why you do you left me. I know it's my fault for rejected you so many times but I guess its karma that now I want to love you. Please.... I am so sorry. p/s : don't hate me

manusia

Assalamualaikum. Hello. Manusia ? Why ? Yeah human kadang-2 macam ughhhh... Sakit hati come on la just let it be. Stop envying ok? Just because you didn't get what expected doesn't mean you have to make excuses like 'Allah bagi 1 A sebab nak kita usaha la straight tu ujian lah', Tak lah boleh straight kat dunia barzakh lah. Oh come on ! Nampak sangat lah macam korang or hampa tuh nak cover diri sendiri. Tau tak sakit hati ? Hello !? I got straight As because I've tried OK! Maybe hang tak dapat straight A sebab hang tak baca buku update status FB setiap 1 jam so don't make a dumb excuse ok. Oppsss...lupa lah saya form 3 tahun ni and on 19th Dec and that today. On 11 am , I got a smile on my face because I got 8 As err...dengar macam riak pulak kn? No no no... But I'm just happy like Louis Tomlinson. Haha...but the funny thing is I'm late for my result. Cari kawan then Azriena kata 'Wei,hang dapat lapan A' masa tu tak percaya kott. Pi la ambik ARGGGGGHHHHH... so happy Ya Allah ,terima kasih Alhamdullilah . Masa I'm all alone so smile like a crazy girl and jump up and down. OK that's all. Bye :))

Selamat Hari Raya

A big hello :) opsss...assalamualaikum. Raya dah nak dekat . Yeah ! boleh makan kuih raya..nyum nyum paling special rendang daging ibu . Nyaman :) Raya tetap raya tapi trial mai buat kcau ja mood nak raya. Adush ! Anyway, saya dan kakak saya cadang nak buat kuih raya . Insyaallah.. Sekarang ni nak tanya sat . Iklan raya mana yang hampa suka ? Kami suka ikln dua anak yatim tuh. Best sangat walaupun air mata saya akan menitis kalau tengok. Dua anak yatim tuh bersungguh-sungguh nak balik kampung walaupun buta dan pekak, anak yatim dan tak ad duit. Dah la mandi kat masjid walupun mak depa dah meniggal tapi depa teteap balik sebab rindu kat mak depa . sedih :'( Tak boleh tgok sebab sikit-2 nak nangis tapi best. So meaningful :)) So, pengajaran bagi iklan ni ialah Love and appreciate your parents eternally before they gone and care for them. They are one and only there's no one better than them :) Anyway , Fizi dan Ahmad dua-2 comey geram tengok mcam nak cubit :D Amar Akbar Anthony such a great story for all of us. Why ? Sebab kita ni rakyat Malaysia berbilang kaum dan agama. This story have tons of moral value . Walupun lain agama tapi kita tetap sama mungkin kulit tak but we're still the creation of Allah :))

Last word, selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin. Maafkan saya kalau ada salah dan silap :) Have a wonderful hari raya !

Ramadhan :)

Assalamualaikum ! and Hello ! Bulan puasa puasa puasa ! Yeahhhh , terasa seronok pon ada walaupun saya akan berasa lapar tapi saya perempuan ada cuti meyh ! Hahha..ish ish ish tidak baik tidak baik kata begitu. Sempena Ramadhan niy : This cute little kitten wanna say to you 'Happy Ramadhan dan tingkatkan ibadat sempena bulan yang penuh suci ini !'

Dua hari pertama saya tak dapat puasa dengan baik. Saya tidur =,= sebab saya pening-2 maybe because saya baru lepas demam tapi saya masih selsema :( Dua minggu lagi nak trial PMR dan saya tak study dengan bersungguh-2 harap-2 bulan ni dapat buat saya insaf anyway :) smile always . Walaupun sekolah balik pukul 3.20 hari ni but I'm okay yalah itu semua kerana menuntut ilmu. Ibadat ... Saya tak tau dah nak kata apa ni but Happy Ramadhan Al-Mubarak :) Have a nice puasa and May Allah bless you always :))

In reality

A big Hellow :)

Why are this happen to me? Astafirrullah. It is my fate. The reason why sometimes I felt that I hate my self is my own attitude. A bad attitude . Sometimes I felt like I'm the worst person in the world. I'm bad-tempered , my emotion can change but I love animals. I remember the time when I really mad and I've ruin a beautiful sunny day with my own tears. I cry when I get mad then I blame others. Bad right? I wanna change my self but I'm not strong enough. My life are full with sadness but I'll always smile after the tears and laugh as hard as I can so I don't have to regret when I'm crying cause I've laughed before. Thanks Allah. To forget something is the hardest task in the world but I learnt something that we have o smile always smile whether we hate ourselves. :)

Dear sidewalk

A big hello ! Hari entry happy-2 sikit hahha. ok it's lame.

Really aku support geyla-2lh dengan gambar ni. Why ? Because it is have happened to me. Everytime I walking with my two others friends . Honestly , I'll be left behind. It is because of sidewalk. Sidewalk jahat sngat-2 jahat you too small. My two friends who walk in front of me or sometimes behind me talk and talk and I have to put my head down cause I couldn't even listen to my friends' conversation and I have to day dreaming . I've to talk to myself but unseen . Sometimes I wish the sidewalk will become bigger I hope the sidewalk take more protein for their growth so I can walk properly with my friendsand talk to them and not felt so lonely. I felt so left behind whenever I walk with my friends on a sidewalk. :'(

An Useless Boy

Assalamualaikum and a big hello from me :) Hari ni saya nak cerita pasal 'Useless Boy'. Why ? Just now I'm thinking thinking and suddenly I reminisce back the moments when my sister cry just because of this one crazy boy who look like a thug. He's skinny , dark and an useless boy. I don't know how my sister fall for that Indian Muslim Boy.

He's not that bad actually but there's always a problem and tears come to my sister's head and eyes whether I *sigh* hate her but I would always care about her. Her blood that flowing in her vein are the same goes with me. How would I don't care about her. But that boy are not the boy I'm easy get along with. Every time they're argued , he would say something really bad. You're cheap woman , Liar , A Cheater. How would you not mad ? Every time they argued I would like them just apart from each others but no they're not. I just don't want she to hurt again. But she would always forgive him. I remember the time when my mom asked him a help to fetch my other sister at Matrikulasi . So off we go , with his one friend . They were misunderstood that time so they're just silent keep their lips locked. When we arived just how the one who care to go to my sister and take her bag ? A heavy big bag ? Me ! I asked him to open the 'bonet' but he just unlocked it not even let his feet touch the ground. When we're arrived home, the same story repeat again. Then he just went home and didn't even said goodbye to my mother. Damn , such a rude boy ! I hate him !

Teenage's Life

A big hello :) I'm a nerd no random crazy thing done by me but only humiliating thing done. But that kind of humiliating moment that make smile , laugh and cover my face whenever I reminiscence back all that thing. Do my spelling good? No? Whatever. It's true what Mark Twain said about young people take this young age to make them smile in old age. Whether my past is kinda embarrasing but that moment maybe would make me smile in my old age. This next thing is about my mind that have gone mad everyday . A girl living in her own fantasy. Great right ? I said to you this thing. It's better living in my own fantasy but 100% 20% reality drive me insane . Pressure , tense and sadness make me feeling bad about life. But I always keep saying that there's always a reason behind all the thing that have happened . it's frightening me. So I make my own fantasy so I don't feel so much tense in my mind .

The Best Feeling

A big Hello to all ! It's 2.20 am and I'm wide awake listening to my mom and auntie's laughter. They laugh so loud and my ears can be deaf . *sigh*

I have this kind of best feeling in my life exactly the same. Everytime I memorize back this memory . I would say that I'm such a stupid girl runaway from him. It would be the time when i can talk to him just like before. I don't know when or how I have crush on him. He's a bestfriend of my old famous crush that make me flying in the sky more than my old famous crush. I don't want to LOVE him but I just couln't RESIST what my heart felt about him. He's a lame , bad and unhandsome boy that have hurt tons of time silently. I don't know if he have the same feeling like I do but that what I hope for. This best feeling happened just about 2 months ago when the first bell rang in a misty morning. I walk alone through the pathway to my class with my long face dreamy mind. I noticed there's many boys walked behind in front . at the back but not besides me. Whether I noticed them but my ordinary me they're a girl. Walk alone with my mind dreaming that I'm dating Jamie Bell until my heart like whispered to look besides me. With my lazy sleepy eyes I looked and find he staring I mean maybe just looking at me walking alone with his mouth open. HELL ! His eyes are like the stars in the sky with his sight like an arrow killing me. When a nerd girl having a crush on somebody then notice that her crush looking at her. Of course I run my lip-locked and my heart beats fast. Maybe I'm the only one who felt this way maybe he's not. As I went away through the crowded pathway , I heard his friends laughed. DAMN ! Such a humiliation thing ! I shouldn't like him but my heart couldn't resist it. BUT THAT'S THE BEST FEELING I HAVE EVER FELT BEFORE <3

Dear Past

Hello

Hari ini I want to talk about past. Dear past ,stop tapping my shoulder. You know I have such a horrible childhood full with humiliation. Hampa ada tak mcam aku ? Just answer it in your heart. Sometime, I don't why suddenly my mind playing all those memory again. If i can go back and change the past. It's have been a long time ago , I'VE CHANGE IT. But i know I can't I'm just a little girl not GOD . Even sciencetist (sp?) couldn't invent a time machine.Everytime i remember all those memory , I would cover my face and sometimes i cry. Everyday I pray that i could Avada Kedabra my childhood. So dear past, stop tapping my shoulder I don't want to know everything.

Suicidal

Hello

When you stress out. Do you ever wanted to kill yourselves ? Perform suicide without even think about your after life ? Every teenagers maybe have been thought about perform suicide as they thought there's not reason left for them to live. Too much misery and heartbroken.

There's a story I gonna tell you about one of my classmate. In Monday, the boy called A... tried to kill himselves just because a silly thing that is his Gf having problem with him. He thought that she forgot all about him whether his Gf is sitting behind him all the time. Silly right ? He took a pair of scissors and tring to stab his neck doing it slowly and jerut-2 his neck with his tie.

The funny things are his friends tied him up so he didn't do all that stupid silly stuff. But , it's seem that he don't want to kill himselves just trying to catch his Gf's attention . Hoping someone will save him.

Bye :D

Going Somewhere

Hello :D

Today , sya nak cakap pasal what's I found in We Heart It picture of course . Life quote sound like :

Go somewhere where nobody know your name . Bila pikir-2 I've that thought gone somewhere where nobody know your names mean not know your life , your attitude and so on. Happily ever after just nobody ever know about your humiliating moments.

People are people . Mean and care only themselves even we are that way. Now , people talk irritatingly and not even thought about how would we felt about their words. So hurting like a thousand dagger stab your one and only heart into a 2 thousands pieces. Talk and talk just knock it off they don't know about you and making us hate them (am my grammar okay ? not right) .

In Islam , all muslim been taught to take care of our mouth and words. Brotherhood is the most important thing in a community. Once it's ruin ,hundred days took to make it okay again. Going somewhere where nobody know our name is okay at least we can take that time to relax our mind and heart from hurting by people who would never care about our feeling only a fun material to laugh at.

Bye :)

They Ask You To Be Yourself Then They Guide You

Hello .

Do you ever felt like I don't know kill people down make them suffer if they done you wrong.
Maybe you're not but I am. Something people around think they so good and perfect.
But they fact they only human and not so perfect.

The reason why I mention all those thing because it's happened at me 2 days ago.
That silly girl said something bad about what I wore like I'm dress up like monkey and she dress up like Beyonce. But she's dress up 100% worser than Lady Gaga.

so WHAT ? If I want to brings an army pattern bag ? So WHAT if I'm sluttish. Having problems with that sorry bitch I'm not. Fine maybe I'm overacting but you just say it without any sorry said to me as you know I heard it . You and your friends are the same.

Wearing hijab show your muslimah in your heart not talk at people's back as they gone away from that place sorry auntie I'm not really leaving. It's true what they said :people ask you to be yourself then they guide you' then you went home cry.

Bye <3

Trying not to remind myself of him

A big hello derr... follower pon skit.
but i don't care i just want to luahkn prasaan yg trkumpul di hati . buat truk tah ak ni. hhaha
Trying not to remind myself of him ? apa niy ?
hampa-2 mesti dh ada first love btul tk aku kata? klau tk kite mntk maaf sygs sekelian. :)
tapi semestinya aku ada sebab tuh aku tlis post niy. :P and truk sgt rasanya klau dlam otak ada muka dy ja .. :'( sedih klau duk ingat msa 2 orang duk buat lwak sma-2. nama dy hmpa sekelian tok sah tau. biarlh rhsia. hehhe btw dy skolah smk seri muda. i ho to the south he goes to north. utara dan selatan tkkan prnh brjmpa .
aku msih ingat masa dy kta kat aku yg dy suka henfon express music (2008). dy buat lwak psal pnsil ptah , kta ak hntu glak (msa tuh mmng aku suka glak tnpa hnti) , psal krangan crita psal pmburu,semut,dan merpati , huruf O dan prnah kta dy bnci bdak laki sbelah dy. tpi smua tuh brubah msa msuk blan 7... dy dh brubah tetibe je dy tk ckap dgan ak mngkin sebab dlu orang tgh ejek kmi brdua. but he didn't know how hurt i am that time. thing change so fast.
aku ingat lgi msa aku brsmbang dgn bdk llaki niy tetiba mai sorang kta 'woi , dy jealous tgk hg ckp dgn dy tuh .'hihhi no doubt i smile like a crazy girl. UPSR dy dpat 3A.
mcam mna korang rsa klau tetiba hmpa trnmpk your old first love blik ? aku terkjut bruk . trkejut bila ada org pnggil nma aku then tetiba mncul muka dy. blik smpai rmah rsa mcam nk bling batu kat muka dy but of course la ak tk snggup.
sedih tk klau dy tetiba kapel dgan kwan hmpa ? aku taw dh rsa dy mcm mna. sdih dan gram dan happy.
sdih tk klau tgok prempuan trgedik sana tergdik sini sbab syg kt dy? bgi aku ya. gatai kan aku
besalah jiwa remaja lah ktakan. hhehe.. i just never thought we would end like there no ending.
i thanks to Taylor Swift dgan lagu dy Last Kiss mcam aku lh..

aku nak lupakan dy. dy dah happy dgan mrka dy yg pkai tudung bkan mcam aku. yg baik bkan jhat mcam aku. yg happy ja bkan moody mcam aku nih. but i still happy for you MUM. anyway , dy ska bola spak untk Perlis , Penang and Chelsea. :D.

Taylor Swift (ft. T-Pain) - Thug Story - Lyrics HQ

saya suke lagu ni lawak lorhh.... You know. I'm a fan of Taylor Swift !

She didn't even swear. Hahha...

New Year n New Beginning

Assalamualaikum and A Big Hello to you.

Hari 2 Januari 2012 mark that not 2011 anymore. New Year and new goodbye to my sister. Wanna know what kind of goodbye definitely not dead mintak panjang umur lagi ada la. So, my sister was choosen for PLKN. PLKN kat mana kat Balik Pulau syangs. Awal2 dah bangun nak hantar dia yang riuh-rendah tu. Kinda miss her walaupun kakaku baru pi pkul 10.20 pagi. detail kan? hihhi...ok it's lame , lame and lame . Sekarang dah pukul 2.00 ptg lama lah tuh. kan ?

New year and new time to school. Dalam hati ada gementar ada takut ada tak ada apa and etc. Musim cuti sekolah saye tak buat apa pun. Walaupun ada keja sekolah tpi mlas nak buat. Sat nak buat tengah hari pastu petang pastu malam. hurm.....last2 tak buat terus . haha.. ok not fuunnny. lalavavavooom. Tak sangka aku yang aku I mean saye sorry for my rudeness . Saye akan jadi form 3 and a PMR victim. ahhhh...
kinda feel afraid . so, pastinya azam saya nak dapat 8 A . yeeeeeeee ! Dan nak ubah perangai yang mlas dlam   dri saya ! ;)
ok itu saja saya dah tak larat nak tulis.
Assalamualaikum and goodbye.
#Loveyou