The Best Feeling

A big Hello to all ! It's 2.20 am and I'm wide awake listening to my mom and auntie's laughter. They laugh so loud and my ears can be deaf . *sigh*

I have this kind of best feeling in my life exactly the same. Everytime I memorize back this memory . I would say that I'm such a stupid girl runaway from him. It would be the time when i can talk to him just like before. I don't know when or how I have crush on him. He's a bestfriend of my old famous crush that make me flying in the sky more than my old famous crush. I don't want to LOVE him but I just couln't RESIST what my heart felt about him. He's a lame , bad and unhandsome boy that have hurt tons of time silently. I don't know if he have the same feeling like I do but that what I hope for. This best feeling happened just about 2 months ago when the first bell rang in a misty morning. I walk alone through the pathway to my class with my long face dreamy mind. I noticed there's many boys walked behind in front . at the back but not besides me. Whether I noticed them but my ordinary me they're a girl. Walk alone with my mind dreaming that I'm dating Jamie Bell until my heart like whispered to look besides me. With my lazy sleepy eyes I looked and find he staring I mean maybe just looking at me walking alone with his mouth open. HELL ! His eyes are like the stars in the sky with his sight like an arrow killing me. When a nerd girl having a crush on somebody then notice that her crush looking at her. Of course I run my lip-locked and my heart beats fast. Maybe I'm the only one who felt this way maybe he's not. As I went away through the crowded pathway , I heard his friends laughed. DAMN ! Such a humiliation thing ! I shouldn't like him but my heart couldn't resist it. BUT THAT'S THE BEST FEELING I HAVE EVER FELT BEFORE <3

Dear Past

Hello

Hari ini I want to talk about past. Dear past ,stop tapping my shoulder. You know I have such a horrible childhood full with humiliation. Hampa ada tak mcam aku ? Just answer it in your heart. Sometime, I don't why suddenly my mind playing all those memory again. If i can go back and change the past. It's have been a long time ago , I'VE CHANGE IT. But i know I can't I'm just a little girl not GOD . Even sciencetist (sp?) couldn't invent a time machine.Everytime i remember all those memory , I would cover my face and sometimes i cry. Everyday I pray that i could Avada Kedabra my childhood. So dear past, stop tapping my shoulder I don't want to know everything.